It’s a simple idea, but even just wrapping your head around the idea of “doing something you’ve never done” is huge. And beyond that, it’s a really interesting concept to “want something you’ve never had”. If you’ve never had it, then you don’t know what it’s like, so it sounds like we’re talking about an attempt to move out of our familiar reality, and into unfriendly territory…
To me that almost sounds like insanity, but might it just be creativity, instead? Then what is creativity? Inviting entropy, and then evaluating it after the fact? Processing the results of previously unjustifiable actions? In order to bring about something original (at least in our own eyes, and what else matter?), we need to push ourselves to do something unfamiliar, something we’ve never done. Then we get to look at it and deconstruct it as if we’re just observing the results as a third party. Originality and newness are in the interpretation of a thing. In order to be creative, we need to be willing to be unpredictable, even to ourselves.
That’s the scary part. Throwing ourselves into something foreign and expecting we won’t just make a bigger mess out of it. Beginning with disorder and new concepts, things we don’t even have words for, and then organizing it and compartmentalizing all this new information into a system that lets our lives make sense again. It’s a bit twisted to actively tear apart our very understanding of life - the result of so much loving dedication and time and sacrifice - on nothing but the intention of rebuilding it. For the better? Maybe, but how else would we find out?